Tuesday, December 18, 2007

Today

I wrote the previous post actually a few days ago on our family blog. Today has been 'one of those days'! I was determined to be Patient, Motherly and Sweet, despite the hormones. I had to do a 'do over.' I went back upstairs for a fast food break and read Psalm 94. Verses 17-19 were great for me...

17 Unless the Lord had helped me,
I would soon have settled in the silence of the grave.
18 I cried out, “I am slipping!”
but your unfailing love, O Lord, supported me.
19 When doubts filled my mind,
your comfort gave me renewed hope and cheer. (NLT)




Back downstairs I headed, apologized to my big girls and then did the Christmas crafts and cookies with my 9 treasures. Keeping 9 children ages 11 and under busy and cooperating is quite the challenge for me.

I only have 1 sick today. WOO HOO!

I also read Proverbs 18. I love verse 22. I did not know it was in the Bible until my sweet husband used it to announce our engagement in a chapel service at college 16 1/2 years ago.
He is so romantic. I just love him. Even after all this time...

Well, I forgot to thaw the meat for dinner. How in the world does one scrounge up dinner for 11 in the next few minutes? I am about to find out! Or be eaten by 9 hungry children...


Jumping in...

We have jumped into the Oregon foster care system. There are 1,000 children in our county in foster care. These children are the future of our county. These are orphans of the living. We do not need to go to Africa or Russia. We have them all around us. Hungry children. Neglected children. Children born on drugs. Dirty children. Children with lice. Children with special needs. Children who need to know God loves them. God wants to love them through us.

Our first foster son came in October. He was an angry, sad little boy. He would cry every night and ask when his mommy is picking him up from this daycare. I told him it is not a daycare...it is a family. I would hold him and rock him every night while he cried for his mommy and sometimes I would cry with him.

Fast forward 6 weeks. He is now a happy little boy who knows there is a God who loves him. He walks around the house singing now and thinks he is one of the most special little boys in the world to have so many people who love him. He loves to pray. He is not perfect. But he is beautiful.

Two weeks ago twin five year old girls arrived. They are busy. They have lice. They were not used to being told what to do. Their little bodies were wired and exhausted from too little sleep and too much junk food. They slept 12 hours their first night here. They have nightly bad dreams. They are afraid. They always want to make sure I am staying here when they are in bed. I hold them and they hang on tight. I try not to worry about the lice and think about how Jesus and Mother Theresa would love on them and then do the same.

I am now a professional nit picker (PNP). I have a homemade concoction of lice killer which is the only thing I found that works. God in his mercy has spared us a lice outbreak. The girls are unwinding and do not have bad dreams now. They are responding to the love and patience.

These are just children. Children. Or are they angels? The least of these? It has been some of the hardest days of our lives. We are exhausted. Right now 6 out of the 9 are sick. Some vomiting. Some with high fevers and headaches. Yesss.....I never ask any more..."Can it get any worse?" Because it can...

God is such a great God. He gives us only what we need when we need it. I did not have what I needed to mother 9 children when I only had 7. I do not know how long these children will be in my care. I do not know how I will get through tomorrow...God only gave me what I needed today.

You do not have right now what you need to care for 1 more child. You will get it when the time comes. Would you be willing to open your heart and home? If not the church...who will raise these treasures? Think about the other options here in Eugene...

Just food for thought during this Advent Season.

Tuesday, March 20, 2007

A Place to Ponder

In my spare time I would love to stop by here and chat or ponder about my journey of motherhood. I may never get back after today! I am a great testimony of God's great power to transform a heart and life back to His original plan for women...motherhood. So many of us have a great love for our children but have not embraced motherhood that comes along with them! We have listened to another message that told us we will find our fulfillment elsewhere. Anywhere but in the home. What else is more important than raising children? What is the next generation without good mothers? I have been learning this lesson now for 11 years. Some of you may not be so stubborn as me and probably learned it much sooner. Or maybe you were blessed enough to be raised to be a mother. Either way, I hope you will walk with me as we learn to be a joyful mother of children.